History..sort of repeats itself

i was reading my old blog

the one in Friendster

and I'm disappointed

to say that now,

i feel like how i did then,

i broke my own promise

i made to

myself

Does that show

i'm weak?

i guess to me

it does

But,

it's as though i kept it all in

till last night,

it's been a while,

probably because

i was keeping my promise

to myself

haven't really progressed

have i?

feel stupid now

because i was so confident

i was progressing,

it's like i was fooling

myself

made myself think

everything was ok

when it wasn't

when i was really

longing for it to be ok

i was pretending

so much so

i couldn't control it anymore,

ended up hurting

myself

pretty dumb eh?

guess history does repeat itself

or maybe,

i just repeat my dumb mistakes

myself