my HEART fell from a TAAAAALLLL coconut tree..

Yes it did !!! my heart literally fell from where it was placed all the way to my little toe with the mole on it. -.- i swear!!! i almost lost my blog! omg omg omg...fuck fuck fuck..

HOW?..and WHY?

because i was playing around with the template thingie..and suddenly everything in the HTML *Wth does that stand for????* disappeared!! and i tried to log in to my blog and it said what it usually says when u can't enter a website. ooooooo i was sweating.. i swear.. it was a terrible feeling..i thought it was gone...forever !!!!!! ..**sweat

BUT..

but its not. thank goodness *phew*.. my comp was laggy so i let it chill for a while, and tried again.. ahhhh.. i saw my green monster.. my blog i mean.. oo i got message from Facebook. lol and it said, Adam wrote on ur wall. lol !!! I miss that papadam! ok, back to 'work' and blog skin browsing..

i want to try and be someone i thought i'd never be, someone i couldn't imagine myself as, someone who really isn't me..

why not?

afterall, i'm still trying to find out who i really am, the real me..

no harm in exploring a little bit..

stop me when I can't stop myself..

clsl

History..sort of repeats itself

i was reading my old blog

the one in Friendster

and I'm disappointed

to say that now,

i feel like how i did then,

i broke my own promise

i made to

myself

Does that show

i'm weak?

i guess to me

it does

But,

it's as though i kept it all in

till last night,

it's been a while,

probably because

i was keeping my promise

to myself

haven't really progressed

have i?

feel stupid now

because i was so confident

i was progressing,

it's like i was fooling

myself

made myself think

everything was ok

when it wasn't

when i was really

longing for it to be ok

i was pretending

so much so

i couldn't control it anymore,

ended up hurting

myself

pretty dumb eh?

guess history does repeat itself

or maybe,

i just repeat my dumb mistakes

myself

Takamine

My Takamine

Few weeks ago, I dreamnt I was playing my guitar. But didn't do it. Last night however, I dreamnt I was playing it again. So after lunch, I cut my nails like really short (big mistake) and played my guitar, after a long time. I don't really know how to play it, as I only went for 3 lessons..4 months ago -.-

Wanted to try "more than words". Would be easy for other guitar players, but it was a challenge for me. I finally got the beginning right, as in the rhythm and stuff, after a long time. -.- Doesn't come that easily though, my fingers are hurting a lot now..but it was worth it. I'd rather feel more of this pain than the one I felt before playing my guitar..

Anyway, I spent my day in my room.. which was really cold, but I felt hot. So I thought I was having a fever (even though you're supposed to feel cold when having fever...) My mum said I had a slight fever, my dad said I didnt -.- So now i dont know, my neck still feels hot though..probably lack of sleep..

At least I accomplished something today..my guitar playing. Guess dreams do try and tell you something..not all dreams though..Going back to my guitar now..

clsl

Middle of the week..

It was a gooood night,
celebrating Al's pre-birthday
in The Apartment
n then Laundry bar
(7.11.07)

Followed Al and Mel back from college
went to Bangsar
dropped by home to get ready
and hopped back in the car to Al's house
Got ready in time
went to the Curve
=)

Ate Chicken in the Bag
the weird mushroom dish
yummmmmy

=)

Then headed to Laundry Bar,
enjoyed the old school
boogaloo music ----> hip hop
drank
danced
camwhored
and had a good time
till 1.am

Happy Early Birthday Alina Lim
hope you had
and awsome
orgasm time
=)

I will try not to bother anymore
I will try not to worry anymore

I will try not to think about it anymore

I will try not to cry over it anymore

I will try not to get hurt by it anymore

I will try to pick myself up from where i fell down.

All this i will try, my very best..

so should you...

The Smiles

What a day!! Today we (Cheryl, Melody, Zhi, Arieff, Caryn and I) went for the Terry Fox Run in Lake Gardens. Caryn and Zhi took part in the running event, while Mel, Cheryl, Rieff and I volunteered to help out in the event. We bought the t-shirts..charity =D I'm going to wear it when i jog..which won't be so soon =P lol

Anyway, it was so fun. Despite the hot sun and the mosquitoes.. it was a good day. We gave out water bottles to the runners/walkers/bicycle-ers/pram-pushers/strollers.. and you know what.. most of them were smiling. It's amazing how they are tired from running, but can actually smile. There were soooo many people.. the flow was like never ending..but it was awsome. The crowd.. the place.. everything was awsome. I think now, Cheryl, Mel, Arieff and I have totally tonned arms after having to stand there holding out water bottles. =P lol

And omg.. the kids were soooo cute!! they were all so semangat-ed to run.. was a good family day la basically. Oh, and Malaysians aren't as rude as people say we are. Most of the runners were Malaysians (duh!) and they said their thank you's and pleases' ... like when we wanted to give them water, they said "thank you, we already have" or like " no thank you " and the best part was, they smiled... We aren't so bad !!!! -.- lol

Oh, and like the Canadian embassy people were there, and there were lots of white people. and they were really nice . lol and oh !!! I ate a banana. ahahaha Mel and I, who usually don't eat fruits, actually ate a banana. And it was big and yellow !!! lol ..

Sooooo hmmm.. yeah thats about the Terry Fox Run :p ended around 12-ish 1. Then we headed to bangsar to have lunch and walk around. lol. Ah ! Cheryl told me about the facebook texas hold 'em game on facebook and i was playing it for like the past hour. =P haven't even finished my assignment!!!! o.O think i better get started !!! .. arrrrrggghhhhhhhh... tc =)

clsl

p.s : Lake Gardens is so pretty in the morning.. anyone wanna wake up and teman me jog early in the morning after college is done ? =P We can have a picnic afterwards and paddle in the man-made river/lake =P Let me know =D